Billie Eilish continues to be one of the most impressive singer-songwriters of our time. The 18 year old is widely popular for her androgynous fashion and chartbusting hits. Billie Eilish recently opened up about her life in an interview which the magazine titled, Confessions of a teenage superstar.
“I have never felt desired”’
Billie Eilish recently took to instagram to reveal her short film titled, “Not my Responsibility,” which first aired during an interlude at her Miami gig. The viral clip delivered a powerful message against body-shaming while the songstress can be seen slowly stripping off to her bra before she sinks underwater. Billie Eilish called out those who have body-shamed her: “The body I was born with – is it not what you wanted?.”
The singer revealed that her body image issues are the result of not feeling physically desired by her exes in past relationships. “Here’s a bomb for you: I have never felt desired,” the singer confessed. “My past boyfriends never made me feel desired. None of them. And it’s a big thing in my life that I feel I have never been physically desired by somebody. So I dress the way I dress as I don’t like to think of you guys, I mean anyone, everyone, judging [my body], or the size of it,” she said.
“That doesn’t mean that I won’t wake up one day and decide to wear a tank top, which I have done before,” she added. Billie Eilish also admitted that she doesn’t mind when images of her body go viral on social media. However, she did speak about feeling trapped by her clothing style. “Sometimes I dress like a boy. Sometimes I dress like a swaggy girl.” The Bad Guy singer confessed that she felt “trapped” in the persona she created, because people often dont view her as a woman now.
Billie further reflected on the meaning behind her short film. “That tour video was about all that. It is me saying: look, there is a body underneath these clothes and you don’t get to see it. Isn’t that a shame?”.
“I just hated my body”
This isn’t the first time Eilish has opened up about her struggles with body image, and how being in the public eye affects her. Earlier this year, Eilish revealed that she’d been troubled by her appearance as a child, since she started developing at an extremely young age. “I just hated my body,” the singer confessed. “I would have done anything to be in a different one.” Billie expressed her desire to become a model when she was younger. she confessed that her style of baggy clothes was intentional so as to avoid getting sexualised and body shamed.
“That’s why I wear big, baggy clothes. Nobody can have an opinion, because they haven’t seen what’s underneath,” she explained. However, the singer has asserted that she is not opposed to showing off her body.
“I almost killed myself because of Twitter”
Eilish has been quite vocal about the negative impacts that social media has had on her life. She called it “unbelievable,” revealing that, “I almost killed myself because of Twitter a couple of years ago. Like, for real.” The singer has been open in past interviews about her struggles with mental health. She described trying to disengage from social media, but knew it’s where here fans were.
“Even if I try to avoid it, which I do now, I end up seeing it. Because those fans, who are actually defending me, repost and respond to the original criticism in their feed. I can’t win. ” The singer even tried turning the comments off on Instagram, but, she felt quite bad after doing that.”I can’t shut myself off completely. Instagram puts comments by those you follow, my friends, at the top of your post. But if you go one comment too far, my whole world is destroyed. I try so hard not to read the hate.”
“I am clickbait at the moment”
Billie spoke about why distanced herself from social media. The singer claimed that she is “super hated” by some people simply because of her fame and success. “Look, I am clickbait at the moment. Anything with my name on it or anything I say or do can and will be used against me. I don’t watch people’s [Instagram] Stories and I quit Twitter a couple of years ago.” Eilish confessed that she felt bad about not posting as often as her fans wanted, “but I have nothing to post. Honestly. Zip.”
The songstress spoke about her recent revelation. “When you get to a certain level of fame or notoriety, it doesn’t matter what you say or do, you are a certain level of known. You will be super hated. And super loved. There are a million people who don’t like Beyonce. And I don’t know how the hell you can’t love Beyonce. Same with Rihanna,” the incredulous singer confessed.
“All i ever wanted was a boyfriend”
Billie revealed in a startling confession that she is “not attracted to people anymore”. When asked about a potential partner, the singer-songwriter wasn’t sure if there’s room for someone else. Maybe eventually, she says, but for now she can’t see it. “All I ever wanted was a boyfriend,” Billie revealed. “Any time when it was rainy or cloudy, all I would wish is I was with some boy. That was my thing. I’ve had my heart broken, sure. People have done some terrible s**t to me. I have never felt powerful in a relationship,” the singer confesses.
“Look, if I wasn’t white I would probably be in ‘rap’”
While discussing racial disparity in music, Billie gave a special mention to fellow artist, Tyler the creator. She appreciated the rapper’s comments at this year’s Grammys. He talked about his discontent with labeling artists in music based on race. Tyler expressed, “It sucks that whenever we, and I mean guys that look like me, do anything that’s genre-bending. They always put it in a ‘rap’ or ‘urban’ category.” According to him, it’s another “politically correct way to say the n-word.”
Billie Eilish didn’t hold back while she condemned the double standards that exist within the music industry. “I have always hated categories ,” Eilish said. “I hate when people say, Oh, you look like ‘blank.’ You sound like ‘blank’. It was such a cool thing Tyler said. I agree with him about that term.”
Billie went on to say that people shouldn’t judge an artist on the way they look or on the way they dress. “Wasn’t Lizzo in the Best R&B category that night? I mean, she’s more pop than I am. Look, if I wasn’t white I would probably be in ‘rap’. Why? They just judge from what you look like and what they know. I think that is weird.”
The songstress seemed to be familiar with the feeling of being assigned to fit a particular label or genre. “The world wants to put you into a box. I’ve had it my whole career. Just because I am a white teenage female I am pop. Where am I pop? What part of my music sounds like pop?.”
“All lives matter” outburst
Eilish has actively voiced her support for George Floyd and the Black Lives Matter movement. She has joined other celebrities in protests and recently took to instagram to share her two cents on the issue at hand. “If I hear one more white person say ‘all lives matter’ one more time, I’m gonna lose my * mind.” The songstress was visibly upset, saying she tried really hard to be respectful, but she had to take time to use her platform correctly. “No one is saying your life doesn’t matter, No one is saying your life is not hard. No one is saying literally anything at all about you. All you **** do is find a way to make everything about yourself.”
